Beyonce covers the March 2013 cover of Vogue and shares with us intimate details about going through labor and giving birth to Blue Ivy. She also mentions how it is being married to Jay-Z and why she split from her father Mathew Knowles’ management to become her own boss.
On the bond she has with her daughter Blue Ivy and getting through labor:
“She’s my road dog. She’s my homey, my best friend. I felt very maternal around eight months. And I thought I couldn’t become any more until I saw the baby. . . . But it happened during my labor because I had a very strong connection with my child. I felt like when I was having contractions, I envisioned my child pushing through a very heavy door. And I imagined this tiny infant doing all the work, so I couldn’t think about my own pain. . . .
We were talking. I know it sounds crazy, but I felt a communication.
I feel like I have something that has grounded me so much more. Family has always been important. I’ve always had my mother and my father and my husband.
But it’s just. . . . Life is so much more than. . . It’s not defined by any of this.”
On why she split from her father Mathew Knowles:
“My soul has been tarnished,” she declares—but later, as she asserts her independence and confronts the petty squabbles of the business, she comes around to appreciating her father’s hand.
“My father taught me so much about being a businesswoman,” she says.
“And I’m understanding him a lot now. . . . A lot of the crazy things he did were necessary.”
On being married to Jay-Z:
“Just knowing someone’s always going to be honest and tell the truth,” she says of Jay-Z, “[who] can understand exactly what I’m going through—and I can understand exactly what he’s going through.”
You can check out the full story over at VOGUE.